Ok, so this is kind of a venting, having one of those days, post. I don't usually like to share what I am feeling when I am having a day or the frustrating things that happen, BUT really I think some times it is a good thing. You know, 'cause often my blog is full of all things amazing and my kids are the bomb and life here is ALWAYS peaches and cream, or chocolate and peanut butter, or what ever combination that is the most scrumptious to you my wonderful readers, but, well, hmm, life is real and some times tough! So, with that said here we go!
There is something that takes over (
on occasion) that fills me with that
feeling, you know, where the only word that fits and it is more a sound than a word
UGH. I don't know what it is, but I feel a bit loser-ish and uncomfortable (
I know, a bit melodramatic) in the life I have chosen. Only, today I think that feeling comes from frustrations with those two wonderful children that reside in my life.
Javin took the cake. I think he left his listening ears in his room under lock and key, because he sure wasn't anywhere near listening and obeying, he wasn't in the ballpark, heck he wasn't even in the same time zone. Usually I am pretty cool with the messes he makes, the joy he finds in all the mundane things of life. Today was
NOT one of those times. He was willfully disobedient and he decided it would be
SUPER cool and
SUPER fun to climb into his sisters bed, dance and then
EMPTY HIS BLADDER! Yes, that is right, I didn't make any typos, he decided that is would be funny (
and his cousin encouraged this by giggling manically) to pee in Orissa's bed. Anger truly grabbed ahold of me. I sent him down the stairs to get the wet clothes off...and to get him OUT OF MY SIGHT.
I came down to put the bedding in the wash to find him standing buck naked on the toilet dancing. Again on an ordinary day I would have laughed and danced with him. I just wasn't feelin' it!
I mean, really? Pee in your sister's bed? What the heck!
Orissa spent the whole day whining, eating and chasing Javin and Shaylee around, only to hear them say, "NO BABY, go away baby!" I have to say that is one of my least favorite things that those two do every time they are together.
My house is a mess, the living room looks like a toy bomb went off in it, the kitchen is needing a bit of TLC and there is a stinkin' mouse that resides under the dishwasher. I
JUST saw him climb out and pick up a cracker and scuttle back to it's den! UGH! That is my day.
I love my boy and I love my girl....maybe not their attitudes all the time, but them forever. I mean, look at them, they are beautiful gifts from my Father in Heaven.


I waited so long to have the joy of children in my love in my home and in my family, and here they are. I don't ever take them for naught, and I have to believe that I get frustrated and all those other emotions because I want them to grow up into the amazing people that I know they can be. And because
I am AFRAID to fail them in some way.